I was
studying in the tenth class in Vandematharam High School, Veliyannoor (now
Vandematharam Vocational Higher Secondary School). Tenth was the highest class in
school those days (1960s). The present day eleventh and twelfth were attached
to college and were called pre-degree course. Plus two was in college, not
school. Tenth was supposed to be the most crucial class. During those days if
you get a first class (60 per cent marks), you would be a hero not only in the
school but even in the whole village. Terms like distinction were mostly unheard
of.
By chance I
happened to be one of the students who was expected to bring laurels to the
school and to the village by obtaining a first class. So, one day Sivaraman
Nair Sir, our Maths teacher, called me to the staff room. He asked me about my daily
routine, how much time I used for studies, what my study time table was, and so
on and so forth. In fact there had been no time table for me as such. My
parents left the responsibility of studies completely to me. That was the case
in most houses then. Tuitions were unthinkable and extremely uncommon.
Tutorials were, however, popular. Tutorials were those ‘colleges’ which
admitted those students who failed in tenth class and prepared them for the
next examinations. Examinations were conducted twice, in March (the regular
ones) and in September (for those who appeared in compartments).
There were no
regular PTAs (parents–teachers associations) or meetings then. In fact the only
time when any parent visited school, if at all, was to attend the anniversary
(annual day function). There was no diary through which teachers used to
communicate with parents, and there were no mobile (or even landline) phones. Even
to this day e-mail and Internet remains a rarity in village homes. To cut the
long description short, there was nearly no communication between the teachers
and parents at all. This was the norm in every school and with every home.
It was under
these circumstances that Sivaraman Nair Sir called me to the staff room. I told
him, by way of routine, that I did pooja (worship) in our family temple, which
takes about an hour every morning. I also told him about how I go about my
studies, which was actually not much. He asked me to send my father to meet
him.
Father went
and met him the next day or the day after that. I was also called in during the
meeting. Sir told father that I should be left free in the mornings to study
and do not send me to perform pooja in the temple. Father said it took only
about half an hour.
Sir said,
‘Oh, half an hour in the morning is too much. Mornings are the best time for
studies and if possible, please release him from the pooja responsibilities till
his examinations are over’.
After all, I
was one who was expected to obtain a first class in the tenth public
examinations and to bring laurels to the village! Well, this was not possible,
because father himself had to perform pooja in another temple about five kilometres
away (for a salary) for which he needed to go every morning and evening.
Father told
me, ‘Well, I shall do the initial half and then you can go and finish the rest
of the pooja’.
I
agreed. And from that day till my
examinations were over, this routine was followed. But I did not do justice to my
parents, to my teachers, to the school, or to myself. I did not obtain a first
class. I actually got one mark less than even a second class. Though nobody got
a first class from the whole school that year, a few students got higher marks
than mine.
I later
analysed the reasons for my poor performance. I realized that it was my
over-confidence that ditched me. Since I was given to understand that I was the
best student in the class I took everything for granted. Maybe the teachers too
did the mistake of pampering me. In fact I cheated everybody, including myself.
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